No words to describe it

I'm absolutly devestated about the Niagara Mens tour. As much as I would have liked to come on here monday morning and tell you all about the great round I played at Penn Lakes on sunday it just wasn't meant to be. I ended up blowing it again yesterday and I'm really pissed at myself.

I started off really well. Making par on the first 2 holes. I was feeling good after getting through those. Then on the first par 5 i pulled out my driver. I wasn't hitting it at all on the range and couldn't figure out how to fix it before my tee time so I thought i would just figure it out on the course. Big mistake. I hit the very first drive left and out of bounds. I ended up making a 8 on the hole. No problem, i'll get it back i thought. Then on the next hole I go back to the 2 iron rescue club. Pure it down the middle. I was 200 out for my second shot, and I made the first mistake of the day. Instead of hitting a light 3 iron or rescue to the green, I figure I can hit a full 4 iron into the wind. Of course i over swing and push it right into the water. I ended up making another triple boogie on the 4th hole. I didn't get out of control. I took a few breaths before my next shot into the 5th par 3. I hit a great 3/4 6 iron 173 to about 2 feet to make birdie. Ok one stroke back. Then on the 6th I kind of worm burn my rescue to about 170 yards. I hit another perfect 6 iron to about 6 feet and drain the putt for birdie. I'm feeling much better at this point. My putting was phenominal all day. I ended up paring 7 and 8 and made a boogie on 9 to shoot 41. I wasn't upset at this cause I was playing so well after those 2 triples that I figured I could shot a sub 40 on the back.

Well this is where I fucked up. On the first hole 430 yards with a huge lake on the left I hit a slight draw (I never do this) with my rescue and my ball just barely rolled in the water. O.k., i'll take the drop and make boogie. No problem. Except, i skulled it across the water, luckly skipped it all the way across, but it was up against the bank and i had no shot. I ended up with an 8, 4 over par. Then i made boogie on the next par 3 and I'm 5 over. I settled down on the next hole. I was o.k. with parring out from there to shot 81, so i wasn't pushing it or worried about my score. I made a few more pars in a row. I was grinding like I was Matts protege or something. Up and down, one after another. Then we get to the 6th hole par 3. Pretty straight forward. 200 yards no trouble except for the water way right. The first to guys in my group hit awful shots, one in the water, the other a pure shank. I decide to hit a 3/4 4 iron to be safe, and I still over swing, push it right, and into the water. I make 6. Now i'm mad. I fully throw it away. My only hope is to birdie the next 2 par 5s and par the 9th and hope some people went high. I pull the driver back out for the second time on the 16th hole. This time i smash it straight down the fairway. I'm 260 out so i use the 2 iron rescue and get it pin high, but left of the green. I had about a 25 yard chip and I played it very nicely and lipped it out for eagle, still made the 1 foot birdie putt. Next hole I pull the driver again, but miss hit it badly. I recovered with a nice lay up to 130 with a 7 iron. For my third shot I try to get real close with my 52 degree wedge. But i pushed it slightly right and the pin was tucked up against the right side of the green. So i try to make the perfect chip and I ended up leaving it short of the green and eventually made a 7. In hindsight (which means absolutly nothing) i should of just hit the middle of the green and taken a par. Made my par on the 9th, but it was too little to late. I shot a 45 on the back to come in at 87.

I shot a total 182 over the 2 day qualifier. Ended up being 5 strokes off of making the tour. And now I'm stuck playing st. catharines every single weekend, with no competive golf except for a few matches and the championships. I'm really gonna miss the whole challenge of the tour. I didn't believe I was going to win any events or anything this year, but I did think I was going to compete. Or atleast make the tour. I really wish I played better. I was hitting my irons so well. I couldn't miss a put within 8 feet, i grinded when i had to, made my up and downs. I just screwed up about 4 or 5 shots and it cost me everything. I really didn't deserve to shot 87, but i did, and thats the way it goes.